We all have our insecurities…
For some people it’s mainly their appearance, weight, hight, teeth…for others it’s how they inert-act and allow people to see them.
This can be a big part of not wanting to put yourself in front of camera, because then you would almost feel like you are facing your fears!
For me growing up, it was my nose! Even typing the word makes me cringe a little! Throughout my teenage life to…well even to my 30s! I hated it. In photos it would be all I never noticed. Any photos which was a side profile, was deleted instantly!
Sometimes it would play on my confidence, so much so I saved for surgery. Then funny enough once I had the money, something started to changed. I realised this was part of me, that made me. Why would I change it, to look like someone else? What happens if I change it and it ended up with it being worse? So I started to look it like a fingerprint, one that unique to just me.
My sister said, once you hit your 30s you change. I remember thinking that was a load of crap. BUT actually in the last 3 years I changed more than the whole of my 20s. I don’t know if its due to your priorities changing or whether you just learn except yourself more…or probably both!
I see women come into my studio all the time that have one or more things that brother them about themselves. Once they tell me, I do acknowledge it, but then I see past it. My aim to help them see past it too. I think it’s important to see yourself in a different light…not as you see yourself day to day. But how others see you, close friends people that love you. They don’t see your imperfections. They see you heart and the goodness of your soul.
It’s easy to forget the good things about yourself. To focus on the bad. But as a whole you are uniquely, beautiful.
I admire the ladies that come in to have a shoot with me, most of my clients want to face their fears and show the world they can be confidant. One thing I have noticed is that the older my client is the more confidant they are too. It’s like an ora you can feel, buzzing with self confidence, knowledge and experience.
For me the #bebeautifulnow is all about in bracing the now. A step closer to letting go of the years of not feeling at all perfect. Who is? As they say, beauty is on inside…I agree we just help show you both.
So do I like my nose, no but at the same time I don’t hate it. Which is a compromise. Now I don’t worry if I see a photo that’s not that great. I don’t want delete memories just because I didn’t look that hot. I may ask them to take the photo again…but we all do that now, don’t we?!
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